I haven't written about my running in awhile, so here's an update.
I ran a St. Patrick's Day 5K race in March. It was really hard for me. Running's been really hard since I picked it back up again in January. I mean, running has always been hard for me and I've always been slow by most people's standards, but last year I made consistent progress all year, slowly getting faster and stronger. In November I ran that race and I was on top of the world afterwards-- I ran the entire thing without walking and my time was under 40 minutes. Now there were new heights to scale. I was just going to get better, right?
Well, I haven't. All January, all February, on into March, I plugged away at running, but I couldn't even match where I'd been last fall, let alone improve. It was so frustrating. I was slow and getting slower. 13 minute mile... 13:30... 13:45... 14:00... And I was running 1.5 or only 1 mile at a time instead of 3. I kept working toward the St. Pat's race though. I'd done it before, I had to be able to do it again, right?
I went to my doctor and we ran a ton of bloodwork. I even pushed for extra tests on my thyroid. Everything came back normal. Whatever it is that is making running so difficult for me right now, it's not anemia or vitamin D deficiency or thyroid imbalance or Hashimoto's disease. So I kept running.
I decided my goal was just to run the whole thing. Never mind times. I was secretly hoping, though, that I would be pleased with my time.
Not so much. Maybe I can blame it on the weather, which suddenly went all North Dakota on us just before the race. Maybe I can blame it on the fact that I don't usually run in the morning. But it took me 42 minutes to run that 5K. I could almost walk it faster than that.
I didn't walk, though. I ran the entire way. And that's something to be proud of and to hang onto. I keep asking myself why I keep doing this. Why running? I don't know. There has always just been this little voice deep down inside me, even when I was at my heaviest and most sluggish, that has been urging me to run. So I keep running.
Here are my "before" and "after" selfies.