Monday, October 27, 2014
Thursday, October 23, 2014
Today I am going to attempt to be brutally honest without being too whiny or gloomy.
I feel like I am already a week overdue and when I think that I still have several weeks left I have a hard time staying positive sometimes, especially when I am feeling unusually yucky.
If it was just feeling incredibly big and awkward and ungainly that wouldn't be so bad. I can handle that pretty well by itself (though twins takes it to a new level.) Throw fatigue, nausea (every afternoon and evening), and insomnia on top of that and it gets a bit more challenging. But the icing on the cake is the problem I have had this entire pregnancy with feeling light-headed and like I can't even stand up or even sit up for lengthy periods of time. Not only do I feel lousy, but most of the time I am pretty much useless, and I hate that. And the smallest things can be so overwhelming.
I am doing a lot of things that help, like the A to B Calm I mentioned before. I still can't sleep, but it's not because of restless legs, and as a bonus I don't get leg cramps. Also, when I found out my iron was low a few weeks ago I picked up some Floradix and that really helped with one particular aspect of the fatigue: that feeling where I am drained down to my very bones and can barely lift my arms. Thanks to Floradix I am now just regular old tired, and that's a big improvement. I am experimenting to see if various forms of magnesium might help with the afternoon nausea.
And I have so many people to help me. My in-laws have been very understanding. My Badger is great. And the older kids can be helpful with fetching and carrying. I really don't know what I would do if I had to take care of and feed the kids on my own... I really couldn't do it. So I know it is such a blessing to have all this help and I am incredibly grateful.
I'm also grateful for excellent medical care and that the babies look healthy and my blood pressure has come back down (it was starting to creep up.) I may act like I am on bed rest much of the time but I am not actually on bed rest so when I do feel okay I can get up and do things and go places (though I seriously need to start using those electric wheelchair carts when I go to the store.)
I am grateful for the beautiful autum weather we've been having and how wonderful it has been to watch the leaves change first on the mountains and now down in the valley. It has done my soul good.
I am grateful that when I can't sleep at night I can get up and sit at the computer and work on digital scrapbooking. I am a little behind on our family chronicles and I know once the twins come it will be a long time before I can do much of that stuff. I enjoy it so much and I know it is valuable to our family.
This will pass. I like what my friend Shelley says: "Remember in the Book of Mormon everything came to pass. It didn't come to stay." These few weeks I have left seem like a long time, but they're really not. In fact, I had a conversation with my mother-in-law yesterday about how close it's getting and how we need to make sure we have diapers and clothes and stuff ready. It was fun to think about that. I bought a package of size newborn diapers at Walmart and it makes it all seem so much more real. The babies are coming. They will be here soon, and this trial will be over for me. I daresay there will be many new trials taking care of two infants, probably moving sometime fairly soon, etc. but I don't want to borrow trouble. Whatever the future holds, it is going to be a relief to have this stage behind us.
Saturday, October 18, 2014
Friday, October 17, 2014
Monday, October 13, 2014
The disappearing part is especially true when most of your stuff is going in a storage unit. Because of my limited health and the way everything happened, quite a lot of things got misplaced. The Badger was able to take a huge load of stuff to storage that ended up here at the house when it wasn't supposed to, and bring back a huge load of stuff that might be what we're looking for here. We went through all that, found a few things we needed, and took most of it back to storage. Now our storage unit is absolutely jam-packed and the Badger tells me it will be hard to look for stuff in it. We're on a waiting list for a bigger unit, or we could get a second unit, but in the meantime we are mostly okay.
There have been a couple of notable missing items. The first is the dough hook for our Kitchenaid mixer. Since we make a lot of homemade bread, this item gets used all the time. We made sure to pack the Kitchenaid on the trailer for our first trip down here. When we went to pack it, we couldn't find the hook-- even though it is always in an obvious place in our kitchen since it is used so much. We figured the Badger would find it when he came back to pack the rest of the house but he never did and even though we figured one of our nice helpers stuck it in one of the kitchen boxes we have been through those and still can't find that dough hook.
Finally, this evening the Badger went to a kitchen specialty store in the area and bought a replacement. Then he got right to work with it. I am sitting here smelling homemade bread baking. It smells wonderful. I know a lot of people who knead their bread by hand, including my mother-in-law, but we go through a lot of bread and the time we save with the Kitchenaid makes a big difference. And so does the money we save: I've been buying store bread for the last few weeks and it's not cheap for our family!
The other missing item might be a little more problematic. As we were packing to leave, I put a big cardboard box in the middle of the living room floor. In it I put every pair of shoes my family currently wears. The day we left I made sure everyone had a good pair of shoes to wear on the trip and that every other pair of shoes they use was in this box. It was supposed to go on the trailer, being a very high-priority item, but we ran out of room. So I labeled it well, with a big neon green sticker directing it to the house and not the storage unit. And I haven't seen it since.
So we're going to have to pick up a few pairs of shoes this fall. Everyone is okay for now, but that will change as the weather gets cold. I am the worst off in this situation: the only pair of my shoes I currently have access to are my Birkenstock sandals. They are pretty much all I wear in warm weather, but they are also all I like to wear when I am pregnant, so even with the weather cooling down I am okay in them for awhile. With two little nuclear furnaces in my tummy, it's going to have to get pretty cold before I am wishing for different footwear.
In time there will be more things we will have to go hunting for, I am sure. Naturally, I hope that it will not be a long time that we will have to keep so much of our stuff in storage. In the meantime, however, I am grateful to be here and I have received impressions that the Lord has set up this situation for me to teach me some certain things which I need to learn, so He doesn't want me wishing it away too quickly. I have no idea what the future holds, but I do have faith that He does and that He has a plan for us. And someday I will be unpacking all that storage stuff into a home of our own again and I will open a random box and there will be that silly dough hook. And the shoe box will turn up and I will be able to wear my favorite brown boots again. It will all be okay in the end.
Sunday, October 12, 2014
- Twin nursing pillow-- everyone says this is essential for feeding two babies at the same time. A regular Boppy pillow just isn't going to be big enough, they all say. I am thinking I want one like this and it will be one of the few things I actually buy for these kiddos.
- 2nd car seat-- this is kind of a must. This one looks an awful lot like the one I already have, which would be nice.
- 2nd wrap carrier (Moby wrap or similar brand) I think when they are teeny tiny I can put both of them in one wrap, but when they get a bit bigger and we go places if we have two wraps I can wear one baby and have the Badger or Bean wear the other baby
- 2nd soothing/containment apparatus: either another swing or another bouncy seat for when they're tiny and either another exersaucer or Bumbo seat when they're a bit bigger. I know some people I can probably borrow these things from, so this shouldn't be a big deal.
- Double stroller-- I love my Joovy Caboose, but it's designed for a baby and an older child. I will need something that can handle two infants. Honestly, I could probably get by without it by having two single strollers since I have so many helpers that love to push strollers. In any case, I won't need it until next spring at the soonest.
- Some clothes-- I have a bunch saved, but it probably won't be enough for two babies. Luckily, hand-me-down baby clothes are usually pretty easy to come by.
- Newborn photography session-- okay, this is not a need, but it would mean a lot to me to get some professional photos of my twins when they are tiny. I wasn't sure how this was going to work before we moved, but happily I have a friend here in Utah that does newborn portraits and I am getting things set up with her. I even have another friend that is going to make me some cute elf hats for them to wear in the photos. I am very grateful!
- And last but far from least, we are going to need a bigger vehicle to fit our entire family into. But that's a subject for another post.